What are we doing???

Liam and I went through a really hard time last weekend about the adoption process. It's incredibly difficult to go through this process. We just laid in bed last weekend after finishing our birth mom book thinking - wow, this is big. How do we trust we will not be taken advantage of? How do we know we really shouldn't try egg donor for one last shot of our own?? The emotions are so complicated. Our fears do not come with having the baby (all parents fear this part) but we just fear the match. Will we make the right decision? Will the birth mom change her mind at delivery. Will it be a scam? It's all about the money (adoption), and it's all about the birth mom and not about the adoptive parents. It's difficult for us too. All of our hopes and dreams and fears...so much is out of our control. We have to trust a lot of people .
After deep discussions and for me, going to church, it came to me again so clear that we are doing the right thing. We could never go back and do the egg donor idea. This is right and I pray that we will not be taken advantage of financially and emotionally and that we will make the right choice in picking the birth mom.

We finished the birth mom book and it's ready to print and send out!